It’s been far, far too long.
I guess I’ll give you a little update, though I’m not sure anyone is actually interested enough to read it.
My son’s father and I are no longer together, and I couldn’t be happier!
I was so unhappy with him, all I wanted to do was get high or feel like killing myself. I got into bad things, really bad things. I wanted so badly to be able to stay up and finish my class work, so he said he’d help me. I thought he’d actually help me with it, or get some Adderall, because I should actually be prescribed it. He came home, we smoked, and I started feeling funny. I was super awake, shaky, full of energy. I didn’t think anything of it, so I just started to my work. I got it done in practically no time. This went on for about a month. Then, one day, I was cleaning our room. I found a baggie of crystals, some kind of drug. I confronted him about it. He laughed at me and said, “Are you stupid? That’s been in everything you’ve been smoking. You’ve been smoking meth.” He got me hooked on meth. I couldn’t function without it. I almost overdosed one night, and he didn’t even care. Finally, I hit my breaking point: he passed out with my son in his arms. I left that morning, and I didn’t go back. I relapsed twice, but I’ve been clean since June. I could never imagine going back to that. I don’t do any drugs now, and that’s how I like it!
I met an amazing guy, and my current boyfriend, Anthony. I feel like he really saved me. He’s got a great job, treats and loves my son as his own, and has supported me in every way. We plan on getting a place together once we can afford it, and I’m looking so forward to it. :)
Since I have been clean, and been in an amazing relationship, I’ve gained some weight! My boyfriend is a more solid guy who likes to eat, so I get to indulge in yummy, yet fattening, food. I came back on here to get on track! My boyfriend lost a lot of weight before we met, and he’s slowly starting to gain too. He used to be 287 lbs! When we got together, he weighed 210; he now weighs 222. :/ We’re not helping each other, but that’s going to change now. :)
I’m coming up on another big obstacle: Trying to get full custody of my son
I don’t feel like his father should have anything to do with him, when drugs still seem to be a very big role in my life. It’s not fair to my son to be around any of this.
I just felt the need to get that all out there. Wish me luck! <3
sounds like fun, right?
Highest weight: 215 lbs
Current weight: 162 lbs
It has taken me a long time, and it’s been a battle… But I’m learning to love and take care of myself and my body. Healthy eating and exercise are key. It’s not over yet, I am still working towards my goal.
Damn, I make myself wet…lmao. Start motivated, guys and gals. It pays off!
dear heavens above